Fragment – Changes In Life

Incidents occur in ones feel daily. Most of the time people enjoy talking about what happened instantly because most of the time its usually funny and it isnt truly considered anything serious. Some calamitys in our lives are very(prenominal) serious and arent as easy to talk about with others. Even though this is true it does sustain the person feel better to talk about their problems whether they realize it at jump or not. Changes in conduct like these can deepen you both physically and mentally for the rest of your life history depending on the grimness of the situation.In early August of 96 my life at photographic plate became a living nightmare. I dont really kip down what it was that started this thing between me and my parents precisely I do remember that they were forever and a day doing anything they could to just annoy me. I doubt this was intentional only when at the time it expected that it was. They would find any excuse to yell or whack me for things that didnt even involve me and they wouldnt listen to anything I had to severalize at all. They were right and I was wrong, thats the long and the nearsighted of it. It got so hard that I hated being home.I would do anything and go anywhere just to ask away from my parents even if it meant difference roughlywhere that I had always hated spill before. When I couldnt get out of the house I tried my best to stay in my room and keep the door closed. When they decided that they didnt want me in my room where they couldnt fuss at me they came up with this big conceit that I was trying to obliterate something from them. They must arouse a bun in the oven spent a lot of time trying to decide what I was trying to hide because they came up with the only halfway smart thing I had comprehend from them in almost a month. They had decided that I was smoking.Too bad for them they were wrong. Until their accusation, I hadnt touched a cigarette but later on that I did. I spent count lit tle hours calling about the things that were going on with my life. For almost a whole month I theory about ending my life and my problems, I thought about how I could fix my life by getting away from the house legally, and I wondered what their reasoning for doing this to me was. I finally decided that the smart thing to do would be just do something to get away from them legally but my next question was how then I got a tip as I was scanning through the newspaper one evening.I was going to get a job and that would keep me away from home. I utilise to the first ad I saw in the paper and queerly enough, I actually got a call from Ramada Inn in less than 3 days after applying. I went to 2 interviews and apparently passed with straightaway colors because I got the job about a week later. after feeding there for about 2 or three weeks the things happening at home had came to and end but I had finally gotten my first taste of real life with my job and it wasnt too sweet. To ident ify the truth it was terrible.I found out the real reason they engage me. It wasnt because I was so qualified or whatever, it was because the place couldnt get anyone to work. The reason for that was the boss was a real pain in the rear. So now, I didnt energise to worry about problems at home I now had to worry about problems at work but at least I was getting paid for displace up with their crap. I guess thats the price you welcome to fabricate and for me getting a job and getting rid of the problems at home end up saving my life.In my lifetime I have seen a lot of weird things and have had lots of experiences that have changed my life in one way or another and Im sure that there are going to be lots more of them to come but these that really stand out in my thought are mainly because they happened quite recently. In my mind, I know that I am lucky that these happenings did only affect me mentally and didnt go as far as to affect me physically because had they succeeded, I believably wouldnt be here today. I know now that it would have only been a long term solution to a short term problem but at the time it seemed like self-destruction was going to be my only way out.I began getting very frustrated with the events going on in my life and just cute to end them all. Looking back on what I thought at the time, I am glad now that I just kept telling myself subconsciously things would get better with time. The thing is, the resolution of my problems took seven-day than I wanted them to. Id say that if these problems both with my family life and my so called work life had continued much longer, I would have disregarded anything my friends had told me and that I had told myself about things getting better and would have finish my life as you and I know it.You know, the more I think about it in writing this, the more I believe that I probably wouldnt have ended it totally because I seem to have really bad luck. You may ask what this has to do with anyth ing but I figure that if I had tried to kill myself, I would have ended up being found and taken to a define and they were able to save my life but I would have ended up being a vegetable but knowing some people, they probably think Im a vegetable already.